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Letter Details: A letter I can't bear to send

Category: Valentine's Day Promotion!

Description: I wrote this a while ago but its been weighing on me forever. this is a letter that explains the story of my life for so long now. you may say i'm craving attention but this is my fucking life so don't tell me how to live it. it might make some people hate me but its been kept from the world for so long that i really don't care anymore. and now, without further ado, an unedited letter.

Dear Tatyana,

It's Lucas McGavin. Its been so long and I don't know what to say. I hope Finland is amazing. How are things there? Is the family doing well? How is the weather? The horses? Sophia? The boys? Haha. It's crazy, i have so many questions, thoughts, things I've wanted to tell you. It really is hard to even try to put this all in a letter. Where to start? Well, things here aren't the same without you. I know everyone misses you so very much. Especially me. I wanted to send this letter with others from your friends to let you know that we are thinking of you but I'm not sure if you'll ever even see this letter. Before you left i wanted to tell you things that needed to be said. But i was too scarred of rejection to let you know. I thought you wouldn't care at all. After you moved you were on my mind all the time and i didn't know what to do. I missed you so much and there were things left unsaid that I could not handle. I tried to put your memory asid and forget about it all. But it was impossible. To my regret, I cut my wrists because i thought it would take away the pain that I was feeling. But it only made life worse. I'm sorry for telling you this but it does brighten up a bit. I went though all of this pain and emotional torture because of the love I had for you. The love I have for you. From the moment I met you I was struck by just how gorgeous you were. The fire of life that burned so brightly in your eyes. As I got to know you better and better I realized that you were more than just a beautiful girl. You were an amazing woman that I could say anything to, a wonderful friend, a person i could trust, someone that could make me laugh, someone I could talk with for hours and never get bored, a total slacker in P.E. (haha) and finally a woman that I loved. To be honest, I always had a huge crush on you. But I thought that I never had a chance with someone so amazing. Whenever I was feeling down you would just smile and I felt like I was in Heaven. As corny as that sounds it's true. It was like you always gave me a bitter sweet feeling that I loved. I knew I could never be good enough for you but I could not help but love you. It always seemed like i had the wrong timing and I would miss my chances with you. I could never have the courage to say how I really felt until you lived across an ocean. There were days when I thought that I was ready to reveal how I felt but as always I backed down every time. I think you deserve to hear what I'm feeling even if it means nothing to you at all. This is just something you need to hear. For your sake as well as mine. I love you. I always will. Forever. Nothing can change that. Not time, not life, not people, not distance, not death. You are the reason I want to die and the reason I want to live. I don't care what stands between us, that fact will never change. I would like nothing more than if you felt the samw but if not, my love will still stand strong. I may try to replace you but it isn't the same. Nothing in the world can compare to you. The way you make me feel, the way you are. You could kill me and I would die happy that I had known you and loved you with every last beat of the heart in my chest. Look, I know you don't feel the same. It won't matter how hard I try to win you over. There is really nothing I can say. Although I must say that I am forever your's Tatyana. I will always be a phone call away, thinking of you if you ever need anything. I only wish I could see you sooner. I just want to be with you. I can't say it enought but I honestly miss you. I feel like a part of me is gone. I don't know how to explain but never in my life has a girl made me feel the way I do. Like every time I talk to you I wear a big bright smile for the world to see. Like when I see you I get weak in the knees and my stomach is overflowing with butterflies. Everything reminds me of you in some way. I get excited when I remember something special or funny about you and so down when a painful memory crosses my mind. Other guys might be better for you and certainly closer but I know that no one will ever love you the way that I do. Never forget that. Because I will never stop loving you. I feel much better now that I am able to admit how i feel to both you and myself. I hurt myself before because I was not willing to face rejection but now I am and I will never cut again. I had the help of some good friends to get me through my problems. I know things might seem bad over there but you always have your loving friends to support you when you are in need. Remember that. I am always here. Call me any time if you need to talk. Call because you hate this letter. Call because you got bored. Call because you wanted an excuse to call me. Lets just be sure to keep in touch. Tatyana Kolybabiuk I love you. Until the stars burn out and the oceans dry up. Forever and ever. Please don't cry when you get this. You know I'm not worth a tear. Tell Sophia I said hello. Please write back.

Love always

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Don't Send It!	22-January 2006
sweet but it would scare her off

Don't Send It!	22-January 2006
sweet but it would scare her off

Send it!	22-January 2006
Aw I think you should send it... but i dont know about the wrist slitting part... Id be scared to send that part....

Send it!	22-January 2006
Whoa. Send it. You seriously love them then send it. BTW Wheres the wrist slitting part?

Send it!	22-January 2006
holy shit dude send it!

Send it!	22-January 2006
holy shit dude send it!

Send it!	22-January 2006
holy shit dude send it!

Don't Send It!	22-January 2006
Wow. Most other letters on here are short and shitty...

Don't Send It!	23-January 2006
A letter this revealing should be kept. If you send it you will most definitely freak her out. There's no reason why you can't tell her how you feel-but please, a phone call would be better, NEVER send this letter.

Don't Send It!	22-January 2006
ok tell her how u feel but the letters really kinda scary even though its extremely sweet so dont send it keep it. and the part about her not wanting to be with you. U DONT KNOW UNLESS U TRY!!!!! trust me i have the sweetest boyfriend i thought hed never go out with me in a million years but i just decided to see what would happen :D also if she doesnt want to be with someone with such a caring heart then shes not worth it

Send it!	31-January 2006
that was so sweet, i think deep down you know your meant for eachother

Send it!	31-January 2006
I think you should edit out the part about slitting your wrists, but I definately think you should send it. I know, as a girl, that a letter like that would make my day. :) Good luck!

Send it!	21-March 2006
O, i'm really sorry for you boy!

Send it!	28-April 2006
send it send it send it

Don't Send It!	10-May 2006
its sweet but would scare her, too pressurizing

Send it!	16-May 2006
Holy shit...go see a doctor...If your cutting yourself...She's not that great...your like 12...Get help fast...you could seriously die one day...

Send it!	7-March 2008
will you still feel the same when she moves back?

Send it!	5-April 2008
she is moving back to america. tell her so you can start a new life.

Don't Send It!	12-May 2008
it's good you wrote this all out, at least got it off of your chest, even if it was simply typing it out. she's coming back, do you know exactly how you'll feel then? act upon instinct, but don't be too overbearing. in the meantime, be careful with any girls you attempt to "replace" her with. they may not know of this; don't hurt them.

Don't Send It!	13-May 2008
damn thats some jerry springer shit!

Don't Send It!	24-June 2008
fuck i know tatyana and she'd be so freaked out.... never send it. i tell you

Don't Send It!	25-August 2008
Dear sir or madame, You are insane. Like clinically insane. Like I'm afraid of you. You belong in a loony bin. You'd like it. Get to know some other crazy people. They're really very nice. I hear the food's good too. Sincerely, A not insane person

Don't Send It!	28-August 2008
Dear sir or madame, after i read this letter, well, to be completely honest i didnt finish it. it made me sick. i hope you seriously did not cut your wrist. and if you did for this girl. you seriously are very immature. grow up. hurting yourself isnt gonna win you this girl. there are like millions of other different girls in the world. and if you really think that this one girl is the one, you are messed up in the head. your like 16? im guessing, your hormones are probly sky rocketing. go to college. live a great life. what would of happend if u died the one time you cut your wrist? would of it been worth it? honestly? if your answer is yes, then go jump off a building. people like you make me want to vomit. how do you honestly know what you want when your this age? theres a high % that you truly dont know what you want. maybe for dinner, but not something this serious. grow up little kid. and get over this girl. -jesus (p.s. shes probably wayyyy out of your league anyway)