Letters Never Sent - Scathing Truths Never Shared with the Recipient

Letter Details: Hey YOU at 3:30am

Category: Romantic Tiffs

Description: my experience through out highschool and who i am today. Due 50% to one specific kiddd

it will be the death of me if i let you get the best of me.
the first day i met you i was a freshman. naive and young but for some reason i never wanted anything more when i first saw you. To most people your just average. To me very appealing. all i wanted to do was say hello. and i did, just like that we were peas and carrots. you remember those storys we'd right? The Class ended so we just used AIM for the time. ya know to young to have cars and u had a gf and all. I was so happy of our friendship. Next school year. bestfriends considered together. we didnt go a day without talken. to young to drive all there was were laty night calls talking bout ninjas and baby names. Didnt think ud go out with anyone after you said you liked me... but you did. i accepted it and supported it and help through every problem you had. when that was over you said it was to make me mad. I lied and said "that didnt make me mad, just surprised" Everyone thought we were together i wish i wasnt so busy with sports.. you made me so happy and strong i thought this was all i ever needed. then at the end of the year i find out you fucked your ex. and you never said a word to me and when i found out we didnt talk for a year. and you got back together. A whole year. i didnt say anything. but i was so alone. and i think my heart was broken. id go home everyday and wait to fall asleep.. and dream. all i could do was try to come up what did i do..so wrong to you. i hated myself. that whole next year i grew up uncaring about everything and lost. i just went through the motions. but i got better as time passed.the next year i only thought of you on occasion just as a good memory. i had been with a few boys but none who mattered then I had someone new who was just like me and my bestfriend finally happy again. i never thought youd come backk but you did. i tried to shove you away but i couldnt because in my heart you'll always be my best best friend my other half. i tried so hard. to forget. i went over your house intending to have you to stop coming on to me. i was able to drive now and see you on my time. im 18 an still young but i think i can be strong enough to push you away. but i wasnt. i cried and cried to my boy that i was sorry. but we could never be the same. and so i was alone but with you in a way. we hung out again. i felt so alive to be talken with you. i knew you kinda were with someone but i didnt think youd do it again...then after you took "it" a week later you went out with that girl who you said was just to "get me mad"
ouch. that hurt. maybe not as the first time cus i was expecting but... i hate you. please like me. u left me alone. since then we've hook up a few times always ending with tears that you cant see and you mad at urself for cheating. id comfort you still... you ruined my realtionship cus i would tell him. you never will tell her..
this is who i am now. uncaring, untrusting girl who is scared of being a boys tool again and a girl who wants what she cant have. And the only thing i know for sure is were not done.. and i know you know that. im only scared to go to college knowing you wont be a 15min drive Away.
man i hate you kid see yah sooooon